WOW it has been a while

It's July 29, 2010. I have more days of being okay than days of not being okay. I am a different person than I was before April 28, 2007. Of course, I am. How can I not be. I was a wife looking to a bright future with Jerry. We were planning special things to do with the family and to do on our own. We were going to be happy and secure in our old age. Now I am a widow living pretty much from one pay to the next. So my retirement plans have changed. I didn't want to be 62 and still working. I am grateful that David and Brian live nearby and I am so much a part of their lives. What can I say about Tyler and Emily? They are my world. Two of the best kids you can find any where. I have made it through the summer without having to be in a hospital. First time since my surgery in 2007 so that has been great. Not going on vacation with Dave and Shan was a BUMMER and I hope not to do that again. I miss making memories for them, Tyler and Emily. I miss Shar and Bill a lot. They were so good when I was in the hospital for a month in Pittsburgh. Never missed a day to be with me. How special they are and how glad I am to have them. I am still taking a lot of medicine and am hoping when I go back to the doctor in September we can start getting me off some of them. I'll try and not wait so long to post, but since I have FaceBook I spend time on that and post things there, but here I can say more and get my feelings and thoughts out.