No better - another stay in the hospital

sad is all I want to say today. Maybe it was the three days in the hospital, but I have felt sad since I came home. Sadder than usual that is. It might be because I thought I was doing so well and staying out of the hospital and then it comes and hits you out of nowhere. Carol promised me it would get better. It hasn't. How long does it take to get better and find some peace from Jerry's death. It will be 4 years next month and I am no better.