Tough couple of days

Last Friday I went to the funeral for the viewing of a friend's husband. It was the first time I was back at the funeral home since Jerry died and Bud was in the same room as Jerry and the service was in the same chapel. It was hard being back there again. I was flooded with memories and sad for my friend at the same time. Next to losing a child, losing a spouse is the most difficult thing you will endure. It's been 3 1/2 years since Jerry died and I am still having a hard time with it. If you have lost a spouse don't let anyone tell you that you should be over it by now. You never get over it, you are not going to be the same person you were before your spouse died. If people tell you they want the person you were back tell them you are sorry, but that person died with your spouse. I'm not saying you won't find joy in your life again. I'm just saying it will be different. Take each day as it comes. Some will be better than others. Some days just getting you face washed will be a big step, others will be better. Remember there are people around you that love you. Take relieve in that.