Not sure

Titled this not sure cause I'm not sure what I'm going to say here. I'm feeling lazy, but full of love for my family. I am sad Jerry is not here, but happy I have my Tyler and Emily in my life. Summer has flown by, like it always does and school will start again soon. Finally I will get to be in the same grade as Emily. I have waited five years for this to happen! How can it be possible to have two opposing feelings in your heart at the same time? Wish I knew.