Thursday, August 13, 2009

Do people really take one day at a time???

Do we really take one day at a time or do we let the things pile up on us until we're so loaded down we don't know what to do first. I think I fall into this category. I just keep putting things in my gunny sack and before long the sack is too heavy to carry. This is where I am now. I've been thinking a lot about Jerry, I think because so many things are happening and I feel like I'm the only one dealing with them. I'm really missing him a lot right now. The car needs some work, have an appointment with UAMS on Tuesday, school starts back on Wednesday. Emily's kitten has worms. I hate to drive the car any more than I have to so when I was at Wal-Mart I got some de-worming stuff for her. Emily hasn't been to see the kitty in a few days. I think the novelty has worn off. She's a nice cat as cats go, I'm not a big cat person. With all my own stuff going on I can barely take care of myself let a lone an animal. All I know is I want my Jerry back NOW! And that's crazy, which I have been certified as being. It's been 2 1/2 years when does the longing and grief lessen? Or does it ever. Okay end of pity party for now.

Monday, August 3, 2009

I'm still here

Well, since the last post I have been back to the hospital with the same problem so I am going to UMAS on the 18th of August and see if they can help me. While I was in the hospital I had my medication changed and that has helped my depression. I stayed with Brian and Carla for the week end a few weeks ago and Carla took me to a health store where I bought some herbal tea. The stuff was great. Worked like nothing else I've ever had. Then - it stopped working. So I'm back to square one. Went with the gang to New York for a week. Had a great time. Had my picture taken with the "naked cowboy". Emily wanted a kitten or a puppy for her birthday. Her parents said no. The on Sunday before her birthday Paw finds a mother cat and her kitten living in his old truck. Emily is thrilled. Mom and Dad say no, but God says yes. Well, how can I resist that. The kitten is living with me. She has gone to the vet twice for shots and goes on Wednesday to be spayed and de-clawed. I am on my way now to a popcorn party that Emily is having. Should be great fun!!!